when things break, we attempt to fix them. either by letting the problems work their way out on their own, or by trying to repeat what worked before in a slightly different matter. we also change the way we are looking at a problem. i tend to do the first one, let them alone. for most. others i try to work out but have a hard time facing them form time to time.
if you think anything in your life is very important right now, or any problem large, try to imagine what was important ten years ago. in ten years from now everything in your life-your friends, your health, where you work and live, will probably be different. i think this is more true in the modern age and for younger people.
patience is important, also is an urge to fix the things and the right attitude. i am unsure i have either.
my wife mentioned to me today about a recent vexing problem happening in my company that i have tried to ignore:
if you are not doing what you love, at least love what you are doing. she has this capacity, i do not.
if i am not doing what i love, i cannot do it. well, i should say i cannot do it with love. the capacity to fix things that i have little interest in fixing is a flaw in my character.
some recent things in my life that have broken-
-computer crashed. lost some valuable folders for work and some personal stuff that i should have backed up.
-two of my tenants have been angry and are threatening to leave or not pay rent, they are in this building:
http://buildshanghai.com/portfolio-item/the-foundry/ and this building:
http://buildshanghai.com/portfolio-item/continuity/
their angst derives as other people in the building, also my tenants, have been renovating and the sound and fumes are driving them mad. both are tenants, both important, paint will always smell a little and workers will always speak too loud even though we limit the time they can work.
-my secretary at the building above refuses to sit in her seat in the lobby as she also complains about fumes, i have insisted she sit in the security guard station instead, she hates me for this.
-my bird died in another one of my buildings today, although i do not consider this something that is falling apart i have always liked to keep living things in my spaces and have them sort of like a canary in a mine. if they fall sick, there is a good chance something is wrong in the space.
-my security camera for the stuff that was happening at my house (earlier post) seems to keep disconnecting from the internet, i have fixed it six times and spent way too much time on this, but hoping it catches the culprit today. i had a small plant stolen last night, three nights in a row of odd things on my front step.
-some others things ill hold in for now.
i do not expect for anyone to break out their tiny violins for me, i just feel that things are hard for no reason at all. and i know they are not getting any easier.
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