there is nothing to fear i tell myself, my friends, anyone who will listen. what can be the worst thing that comes about other then we will not be here anymore. the pain will be gone, no more questions, no more challenges, savings or cavities to fill. no more awkward silence, bad company and rainy days. none. this is at the extreme end.

fear lies in the unknown. our inability to see the future but know it is coming creates an unusual realization that what is in front of us could be worse then where we are now. that we could get sick, lose our belongings, feel pain, lose our loved ones. that all these things will happen is besides the point since we do not know when. so we get scared. we hunker down, put on mask, wash our hands, hide our objects, lock our doors. that things seap in or we peak out is besides the point, the actions are supposed to put as at ease.

anxiety creeps in. losing the ability to enjoy the now, fear has now won over reason and a spiral of lost time and discomfort twist together till you can calm down and move beyond these feelings. live long enough, accomplish enough and you come to the realisation that the actual outcome of anything is a bit of a let down. that dreams were best when they were just that, imaginations and goals waiting in the horizon. like most things, your prized object..your spouse, the glitter dulls as yourself fades into the background and feelings subside. there is nothing to fear, no one is getting out of here alive.