there are moments of life where you wish you had been happier and not complained so much. typically these are found when things get worse, when your health falters or something very bad actually happens. perspective you tell yourself, as you force a strong face on and try your best to keep it all together. and then there are the things we don’t to do when we are on the ropes, exercise, eating well, keeping in touch with family and friends, creating. all of these fall on the waste side as you try to just make it through the days.

there is so much. you can embrace anything. even in nothingness. you can close your eyes and focus on the breath and be amazed at the calmness of it all or also be aware of how much junk is coming in and out. the same is true with the stuff you have gathered, the bank accounts and even your rolodex. things are progressing elsewhere, there is countless content to be consumed although one of the better things i have heard recent is to produce more media content that you consume. be positive i tell myself as the sun attempts to burn its way through the clouds. it is hard to tell if it is the clouds or the sun i prefer.

and what of all this. is their purpose, my son told me the other day that we only care about ourselves. that humans in their basic elements are selfish. i find it hard to accept but when i think of the things that i have done of lately myself seems to be the main benefit of most actions. even when helping others.