we try to be better. to be better people, better listeners, better health and more knowledgeable. it does not come easily, and we are constantly being set-back by the natural state of deterioration that awaits us if we do nothing. if we simply sleep, or give way to simple pleasures and short-cuts, we never know the feeling of what it takes to beat something, to climb higher, to push further. with little effort we can get to a certain point, if we push on another feeling awaits, the crowd thins out and you find yourself up front of the pact, pushing above the tree-line you get more sunshine. its hotter up there, your roots are further from you, you still are simply a plant in a field, but you are the tallest, you see the ones below and get to see yourself for what it is. for what it is.
just like the time the fish climbs out of the water onto land for the first time, its mans stage into the technology that is the latest transition into an evolution that will take us full-circle into the heavens and back again. already it feels like a dream, this world of ours, information amassed and confounded with a never ending amount of knowledge that reaches in every direction, explaining and confusing every facet of the world we live in. like stars in the universe or grains of sand in the desert, the infinite loop and levels contain everything and nothing. like a lifetime, as complex and rich as anything we know, yet at the same time as insignificant as the grain of sand on the dune, important only in relation to the other grains of sand. important only to those of us who glimpsed it, or stopped to listen to it or see it. flashes of light in time machine spinning madly around a fiery sun.
-on a speed train between shanghai and beijing, sunday 8 PM, April 14, 2019.