there is a voice in my head that tells me how things are going in my life. it pushes me to do and say things in the name of progress. exercise, make money, kiss the wife, educate the son. it reminders of what it thinks I should work on. when i rest it rest. i keep going back and forth between the voice and myself, not exactly a dialogue but definitely a discussion. It reprimands me, congratulates me and from time to time and sometimes makes me think Im going mad.

tv make the voice go quiet, so does sleep. when im really busy with something or engaged in a physical activity, that voice also quiets. it seems that if my attention is truly elsewhere, it has nowhere to be. other times it wont shut up, telling me to worry about this and that, check on the news, clean the house and all other unfinished duties. it seems to want to protect me from something, perhaps apathy, and although i seem to relate to it i feel that it is also somehow separate from me.

my family, colleagues and friends also tend to engage with me through the day. unless i am watching tv or busy exercising. they make noises at me and tell me things while also reminding me of my shortcomings. they feel like an extension of me, part of me. the same extension a campus and everyone attending a university feels like a whole entity. the teachers and mascots are all part of that university. 

my friends, colleagues, that voice in my head, they are on the same team. team blue. it continues along with my stuff, my house, my pet. all one organism, with different ideas and extensions. Like I am the tree and they are the limbs, and that voice in my head, that is what is pushing into the sky. the plane i fly on, the car i drive, even my socks, all part of my organism. the books i read, the shows i watch, the mess i make, the food i eat,all the same organism, all the same team. team blue. go team blue.