its inevitable, suffering is going to come. it arrives in waves, both physically and mentally, and will at times make life feel overwhelming. it will arrive unannounced, seemingly from out of nowhere, your neck will stiffen, your eyes awaken from a deep sleep, your breath taken away with the thoughts of things to come or problems already here. it is inevitable and if you could enjoy it you would have solved the biggest trick there is to life, but you will also be questioned and accused of being deranged.

it is painful due to a desire to change. to want someone to act in a certain way, your body to behave in another matter, your life to resemble another state. envy, revenge, jealousy and nostalgia are the colors that the pain comes in when it seeps into you. its from wanting more while knowing you have enough. If only i could accept the things I cannot change, courage to accept the things I can and wisdom to know the difference, it too could work itself out.

by allowing things to be as they are, by facing or avoiding problems, allowing aches to work themselves out, all the suffering will keep flowing and leave you at peace from time to time. we must allow the muddy water to settle. there is no reason to dwell on it. there is no reason to hold onto anything. it is all passing, this suffering, these things, this everything.