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| clouds near the ala wai canal |
doing anything requires energy. it also sometimes requires risk. the payment at the end can be great, or it can be a catastrophe. for certain, it will be something. and this something is what we are after. it is the opposite of nothing, and it allows us to feel alive. it can kill you, but this is also part of feeling alive.
it is the risky things that make us feel alive at times. the things that exhaust us, like our children, that make us feel the most proud. things that are easy, although we pretend to like them, bother the person who is aware. you seem cheated in a way, you look around and wonder when the floor will fall out. if too easy, there is normally a catch or something is wrong.
watch as you complain of the hardships that surround you, but also marvel at yourself as you deal with it. hide, and the problems will fester, tear you apart from within. push too hard against them and you might at times lose. up and down. with no problems you lose, with too many you lose, a balance in the middle is the way. the moment you solve them, a quietness comes on, and its nice for a bit of time, but too long and we get bored again.