i fix spaces. by rearranging the layout, giving it a fresh lick of paint and rethinking its purpose, I increase its value. Its how I pay for my life, it defines me when people ask what i do, and its what consumes most of my awake time. it is something i enjoy, and with this i should feel lucky. I dont actually do the painting, that is the job of someone else. someone who takes the brushes, sands the walls and changes the surface of walls to different colors and textures. the painter i saw today seemed genuinely happy, it was making him a living and he seemed content with what he was doing. i think it is lucky he has found this place and thing to do.

to be into what you are doing. to find joy with the work you have in hand is something not all of us come upon. from time to time, we are lost and unable to put our finger on the thing we want to do, or the person we want to spend time with. it is best at these moments to span the infinite stations that are out there. to grab a book, try a freelance gig, move to another country or change directions on the path you normally walk down. best to push aside the things that you do not want, to change the tune and get to something of interest. it is not that what you do is always enjoyable, setbacks, disappointments and failure is about, but if you are doing what you want to do, or with the one you like, it helps ease the pain.

so is the same with the macro picture. if you are bored of something, turn it off. in a place that is uncomfortable, move. if you are tired of drinking or smoking or eating then follow that feeling. best to follow those feelings, they make for a better day, and keep remembering, the last one is approaching so best to hurry up and get the current one right. its what i have been trying, not quite right yet, but getting closer.