its out there. your destiny awaits. you become it each day, by defining yourself, by spending your time a certain way, this is you. even as you look for it, like so many things, you have already found it. there is no second guessing unless you want to wear that badge. be careful to observe you, your mannerisms, your dress, accent, friends, surroundings, this, for better or worse is you. this is it.

and like the weather, you are always changing. the only constant is change. you were young, perhaps in your prime, you look back and yearn, but this gets you nowhere today or tomorrow. keep at it, the music is running out, get more, grow, dance like its your last one as it might be but remember to save something for the inevitable music to come. dont let the thoughts bring you down, dont let the weather stop you, dont watch tv, dont read this dont do anything for a while. try it, its quite hard.

its up to you if you think that you have a hand in it. i always thought i was simply falling like a domino, being pushed from behind. but i have observed that i could change a bit of it. i can linger for a moment longer then i should or cross the street when i know i shouldnt. the pause puts people off, the mistakes help define me. i always thought imperfections did a good job showing character. i like some clouds in my blue sky. interruptions in my daily masquerade.