keeping us busy, keeping up with payments, acquiring things and people. society has a way of taking it all away from you and giving you task to do so as not to focus on things that might seem noteworthy. instead of focusing on the meaning of why we are here, or the idea of keeping society in balance, our lives are consumed with mundane numbers and imaginary trophies. we march to work, school and play with expectations created before we arrive. look over here the world seems to say as time goes by. before you know it, the game is over. memories like scars, visible but fading quickly. regret and mistakes apparent, we move on with little knowledge of why we had done it in the first place. easily forgotten, we fade away as quickly as we came in. a spinning world carelessly spinning in a far away place. 

like a stop on a highway, perhaps it was not meant to mean anything. the buddhist tend to say it is about nothing, that as soon as you put your finger on it then you have lost it, the time between the destinations, the anticipation was what it was always about. it always saddened me to see the shadows or actual people of once great and famous personalities. at once an object of desire or importance, their persona stands like a forgotten shoe, abandoned on a lonely street, once important but no longer. greyness envelopes the whole thing and soon they too will be forgotten. 

i am because i know i am. how do you know you are here? is it the feelings that make you aware of your pace? is it that you control the body you are trapped in, that you control the dialogue going on in the head? or is it your parents, your siblings?  so the dialogue in our head goes, animated by the surroundings. scared and happy in each day, we find comfort in repetition but along with everything else we are just another person, moving forward. and dont forget, everyone else is also I. 

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time moves backwards, like the inverted image that comes into our vision only later to have our mind right side it up. we are coming together like a cake already sprinkled with ingredients, rising in an environment that we were born into, only to repeat the thoughts that were told to us all along. do this and dont do that…