trouble is, you think you have time.

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There is a problem that arises when you pause. When you stop to look around at who you are, where and who you are with. Self awareness starts to naw at your reality, chipping away at everything you are doing. You will see the temporariness in it all, the fact that your problems and goals are completely made up by yourself. You will see how you have been running back and forth and busy beyond belief without even you choosing to do so. Like the ideas that float into your head, your existence in fact has happened to you, as much as you think it happened the other way around. 

So we cannot stop. We must get back to the flow of keeping busy. We go on walks, call our friends, shop or search for whatever it is that has moved into our mind. We look out into our world with our modified assumptions that tell us certain things. We see hierarchies that others do not, we create realities that tell us a story we want to see, so we go back to work, to our portfolios to our goals that give us direction and vistas that we head towards alone. Like thousands of sail boats moving in various directions on a lake, we are nothing more than the elements spinning around a nucleus, a moon around a planet. 

Things are arising. Our minds are not only evolving but also constantly at work showing variations and differences in the world around us. It is reacting without our control, as the belly digest food without our doing anything, we are reacting to our world, trying to get ahead, to break into our own sunlight as we move around a forrest of shadows around us. It has to protect our family and its host while absorbing enough energy to keep it going. When we pause, when we quiet the monkey mind you see things you shouldn’t, you find a version of yourself you almost cannot recognize, like pulling back the curtains to a puppeteer that is working behind the scenes building your ego and your self to evolve and exist in a complex and ever changing surrounding.