sleep evades me. my mind thinks i am on another continent, and in some ways it is right. with the internet we are able to make trades on the new york stock market while watching skits of folks running with bulls in spain all from the comfort of our home elsewhere. we can have other partners, or at least share time with them in ten-minute videos that feel somewhat intimate. its hard to say what we have unleashed but it is has certainly democratised information and freed us from our surroundings a bit. as we move in and out of the world online, the blurring of here and there seems to increase with time.

we are now connected to the internet, like neurons in a giant mind.

stephen hawkins

i wonder the ramifications and when they will come home to roast. i wonder as well when it will all come to an end and what it was about. if we have a purpose here, a place where we were meant to be or someone we were supposed to become. if it was a simulation of sorts, if the dominos are just falling forward and we are just part of a larger game the universe is playing with itself. probably too profound.

in other times i think of the others problems. it helps me get out of my own head for a while, build empathy and see things from a different perspective. it also helps me fall asleep. an odd thing, but it kind of takes me to other places, gets me out of my own head. and this is where we all yearn to be, out of our own minds. we find those moments in exercise, in focusing on a movie, in a good book or a drunk stupor. although the last one has ramifications of its own the following morning.